Monday, October 31, 2011

A Spooktacular Day...

Happy Halloween! This weekend we celebrated the season by carving pumpkins, dressing up, and trick-or-treating with the family. Tonight was Ruby's first time trick-or-treating. At each house she would run up to the door in her little red shoes and wait patiently for someone to open the door. She was so excited when she would get candy. She would stick her hand right in the bowl and help herself... she was definitely not shy about it. I loved seeing her have so much fun. It was a beautiful Halloween night in the neighborhood. 






My first "Minnie" pumpkin requested by Ruby

Dorothy and "Toby" as Ruby calls him


First time trick-or-treating


In front of "The Wizard of Oz" house.

Kanga"Rooby"...

Too many sweets...

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Perspective...

I normally don't like posting about myself, but I have had a heavy heart lately.


It's funny how fast life can change. In a matter of seconds on September 13th, I experienced one of those moments. It all started when I woke up that Tuesday morning and I struggled to read the time on the alarm clock. It was much blurrier than normal and I quickly went into panic mode. I got out of bed and attempted to walk around but I couldn't even walk a few steps without losing my balance. I thought I might be having a migraine, but I wasn't sure, so I got an appointment that same day with my doctor. 


I arrived at the doctor thinking I would get a prescription and be sent on my way. My doctor sent me to the hospital instead to get an MRI. The next day I found out that I had an abnormal spot on my brain. I couldn't believe what was happening to me. The thought of possibly not being around to watch Ruby grow up was more than I could bare. My doctor told me that that this spot was called a lesion and these are commonly found in multiple sclerosis patients. I was terrified. Over the next couple of days my vision returned and I began to feel better. 


Through it all Ruby was so sweet to me. If I was napping, she would cover me up and let me sleep with her beloved penguin. When she would see my water bottle, she would chase me around so she could give it to me saying, "mommy waty." Seeing her smiling face always makes me feel better (She is going to make a great mommy some day.) My mom has also been so much help the past few weeks. I don't think I would have gotten through those few days when I couldn't see without her. I am lucky to have so many wonderful people in my life.


 A month and a half later, I am almost back to normal. Yesterday I had my first appointment with the leading multiple sclerosis doctor in the state. She told me that she thinks I am in the early stages of multiple sclerosis. Although it's scary not knowing what will happen in the future, I am thankful because I know it could have been a lot worse. My doctor told me I will still live a long and happy life, she also said that I can still have lots of babies. :) For now, I am trying my best to look on the bright side of this situation and to appreciate all of the time I get to spend with the people I love. I am going to keep living life as I normally would, but now I might have a few more worries to add to my list.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Day at the Patch...

On Friday Scott, my mom, and I headed out with Ruby to a low key pumpkin patch. Here were some highlights of our trip:


Riding on the tire swings...



Petting some animals in the barn...







Playing with a baby kitten...




Spending time with grandma...



The hay rack ride...




Finding the perfect pumpkin in the patch...




Trying to pick up pumpkins...



It was a beautiful fall day!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

23 Months...

Dear Ruby,


I know this is a couple days late, but Happy 23 Months! I keep hoping time will slow down, but it really seems to keep going by faster. After this month, I no longer get to tell people your age in months and quite frankly it's a very bittersweet feeling. When I look at you, I no longer see my little baby faced girl with fuzzy hair. I now see a running toddler with pigtails in her hair, who is talking up a storm. In one month the terrible twos will officially begin, but I think we have been experiencing them for a while now. :) 


Fall Favorites: Watching "Dancing With The Stars" and nonstop spinning and dipping to the music, Examining leaves you find in the yard, Playing with Halloween decorations, Shopping with mommy, Eating apples with caramel dip, Playing with your friends at daycare, Trying on your Dorothy Halloween costume, Yelling "Go Big Red" for the the Huskers, Singing your song: "Daddy, Mimi, Darby Sue..." in the car, Visiting your grandmas and grandpas, Talking about babies and dogs, Sleeping with a pillow, Asking for cheese, etc.


You are such a sweet girl and I couldn't be more proud of the little lady you are becoming. I love you forever!


Love,
Mom


The beautiful botanical gardens





Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Ruby in Numbers...

1: Number of times in a day she gets knocked over by her dogs.
2: Ruby's age in a mere month. :(
3: How many sippy cups of milk she drinks in a day.
4: Number of books we read before bedtime.
5: Number of identical stuffed penguins "pennies" she sleeps with.
6: Number of seconds Ruby can sit still at a time.
7: Approximate number of "bear hugs" she gives before she goes to sleep.
8: Number of times Ruby asks for her pacifier throughout the day.
9: Bags of fruit snacks she could eat in one sitting... if I let her.
10: Number of socks she has lost to her dog Winston or, "Mimi" as she calls him.

Wordless Wednesday...

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Light the Night...

Tonight we celebrated my sister's life. We joined hundreds of people in a fundraiser walk to raise money for the National Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. It was a beautiful night under the stars. The walk this year was extra special because it was Ruby's first leukemia walk in memory of "Aunt Jessie." My sister would have adored Ruby. Although she never got to meet her aunt, we talk about her often and Ruby will grow up knowing how wonderful Jessica was. We love and miss her everyday. At the walk tonight they shared one of my favorite poems:

After Glow

I'd like the memory of me,
To be a happy one,
I'd like to leave an afterglow
Of smiles when life is done.
I'd like to leave an echo
Whispering softly down the ways,
Of happy times and laughing times
& bright and sunny days.
I'd like the tears of those who grieve,
To dry before the sun
Of happy memories that I leave
When life is done.



Ruby and Hazel

Our team


My beautiful family... we miss you Jess